All right, I can't explain every detail to yo, it would hurt to much. But when I was 4 my biological father left me. He doesn't right, he doesn't call... He just exists. The only way I exist to him is when i make contact with him. And when he talks, he promises me that he'll chang. You know the great "change" that happens over night. The sad part is I beleive it. I get so frustrated... It hurts so much because he lies. I'm down to the last fiber of being... It's obvious that he just doesn't care, that he doesn't love me. He just doesn't want to say it. He loves me when he has contact. Besides that he's never there. I hate this. Does anyone have any advice for me? Just a little bit? It would help out. I just try to ignore the pain... I just don't know how I can have so much love for someone I don't even know. I'm stupid. That must be it... It hurts to know that I care for my dad and he doesn't care back...